growing up sucks.

I have recently realized that being big sucks. I don't want to grow up anymore. I don't want to deal with the real world anymore. I have been having problems with my school. They totally messed up my loans. Therefore, my bank account being very low. I have realized that when you are big, you have bills such as gas, food, etc.. I have never been so stressed about money in my life. Everyone tells me "welcome to the real world". Well, thanks..but I don't want to be in the REAL WORLD! I want to be in MY world where money is just money and you don't have to have it to survive. I know, I know...realistic, right? :) I hate borrowing money from parents and grandparents. I hate having to rely on people. I feel like I am using them. I'm not..they're just being nice and helping because without them, I would be evicted from my house, walking to school and starving. I really, and I mean REALLY appreciate all they do for me. I, one day, will pay you all back. I promise. Even if that does mean supporting you after you retire. :)

Never ever, will I ever, recommend Paul Mitchell to anyone. Of course people want to go there for "the name". That's what I did. I paid the extra $2,000 just for the name. I regret it. I wish I would have just gone to Evans or Taylor Andrews...something cheaper. I know I would have gotten the same education. I don't even NEED the Paul Mitchell name. It's not like I am going anywhere FAR with my hair career...just Kanab. People in Kanab don't give a dang where I went to school. Don't get me wrong, PM has been fun at times...it's just not where I want to be. I didn't even WANT to go there. I just didn't know what else to do at the time so I pretty much closed my eyes and chose. Not a good idea. I love meeting new people but some days I DREAD having a client because I am SO scared I will screw it up. I have like, zero confidence when it comes to it. UGH! Sheesh, I got side-tracked of where I was going with the not recommending..

When you first go in there, it is like a dream..just getting all of this money. They tell you "apply for FAFSA and get the money at this time and this time." The first one being 300 hours. People budget their money to get them to 300 hours before they get their first living disbursement check. Ninety-five percent of us got it like, a month later. People with families were struggling big time because they were expecting that check.. THEN, you get half-way through school and they totally jack up your loans. I, somehow, owe them ANOTHER $1,000 dollars because the old financial aid lady put numbers in all wrong...or something. I have no clue. She told another lady that her school was pretty much paid for because of grants. She would have to pay about $2,400 total and the grants would cover the rest. A couple weeks ago, the new financial aid advisor pulled her in her office and told her that the only grant she got was worth about $2,000 so she would have to fork out $10,000 that she didn't know about. She said "if i would have known that, I would have never started hair school." Stuff like this just keeps happening. It is so dang frustrating.

Now, this is where my struggling for money comes in because the financial aid advisor is NO HELP whatsoever. She is just a freaking b-word to me and my mom when we even try to talk to her about it. She just says, "well it's not our fault. You will have to come in my office next week and we will figure out how you are going to pay this back." WELL, IT'S NOT MY FREAKING FAULT EITHER! I AM NOT PAYING YOU AN EXTRA $1,000 DOLLARS BECAUSE YOUR EMPLOYEE SCREWED UP!



Ugh, it's so annoying and I am constantly stressing about everything. Hopefully, it will be fixed. Until then, I hate that school.